Archive for July 2006

Obligation or Love

I’m sure that like me, a number of you suffer from that horrid malady known as procrastination. Now I’m not a psychologist, nor have I ever even taken the first class in psychology, so anything I say here is simply my perspective and personal understanding. I know that for most of us it’s just a bad habit. Something that we picked up as kids and have allowed to fester and grow until it is what it is, what ever level of lazy do nothing until the last moment that it has become in your life. But, for some of us it can also become a psychological problem that needs to be professionally dealt with like any other type of mental disorder. It’s a fear of doing or a fear of accomplishing something (maybe in psychological terms those are two different things?). Sounds bizarre but I’ve felt it before.

I first remember it (procrastinating) back in school. I’d have a project due but I wouldn’t have started it. The due date would be slowly creeping up on me, but I’d be putting it off, at first thinking that I still had time to get it done, then lying in bed at night worrying about telling myself that I’d get on it right after school the next day. The next day would come and other thoughts would occupy my mind until once more, in bed that night, I’d realize that the project/report/test was due in the morning. I’d lie awake almost sick to my stomach in fear of what was going to happen. Depending on what it was that was due, there was usually the hope that I wouldn’t have to hand it directly to the teacher that way she wouldn’t know right then and I could simply slip out of class, thereby putting off the inevitable confrontation another day.

As a young man I can remember not wanting to balance my checkbook or pay my bills and so I would “put it off”. For by balancing the checkbook and going over the bills I would have to face me own financial shortcomings due to my poor stewardship. Procrastinating and putting this off allowed me to return to my non contemplative thought processes thereby putting off the inevitable introspection that would occur. Needless to say, creditors, don’t want to hear about why the bill is late and banks don’t really care why the funds in your checking account are short.

I look back on all of this now from a slightly more mature perspective. I am still a procrastinator but not nearly as bad as I used to be. I have found that it is not so much a virtue to tackle things as they come to me and do so in a timely manner. No, it is more that it works out for my betterment and sanity to be done with my tasks. There is a greater feeling of accomplishment in being able to look back upon tasks completed than to look forward with dread on those things that still need doing. So you may ask, was my change simply a matter of “growing up”, or was it perhaps a self-help book that helped cure me? How did I come about this change in my thinking?

Introducith, The Wife! My wife doesn’t understand procrastination. It’s something that she absolutely abhors. If something needs doing then do it. Putting it off doesn’t change the fact that it still needs to get done. Now, this is not to say that she’s some kind of whirling dervish, dancing about the house every evening doing chores and what not, but she is quite methodical in her work and in the management of her time. I have therefore, by virtue of being her husband, “seen the light” in regards to the timely completion of my “to do list”.

And in a slightly twisted manner this brings me to the real reason for this post.
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Moved

Yup I’m still alive and kicking, afraid I just haven’t had anything noteworthy to say of late.
So just a bit about what I have been doing with my time.

Back at the beginning of the year I started playing around with Joomla which is a open source php based CMS application. It’s core is based off of Mambo (the core development team left Mambo and formed Joomla) and so has a long history and a very active following. I’ve been playing around with the idea of getting our church website setup on a CMS based on PHP and MySQL for sometime now but had never run across an application that didn’t look like just another portal – until I saw Joomla. I downloaded it onto my site and started playing around with it, but my problem is I’m just not the artistic type. Cruising around the Joomla Forum on day I ran across a thread where someone was commenting about the excellent church sites this one company was creating using Joomla. I immediately went and checked out My Church Website. The client portfolio had me sold right off. After contacting a number of churches as well as emailing the developer a number of times, I sold the elders at my church on the idea of letting this company redo our site>> Presbyterian Church of the Atonement. One evening I started an IM chat with Mike Henin from My Church Website and came to find out that he was the company. He’s a young graphic artist who has decided that his passion for web design is not only his business but his ministry. If you happen to be looking for a complete web solution for your church I highly recommend you contacting this company. I’ve been thrilled with not only his product but also with his business ethics.

I’ve gotten involved with the Men’s Ministry at my church. A few months ago I started becoming convicted that I just wasn’t going anywhere spiritually. I wasn’t being fed, I wasn’t trying to learn anything new, I wasn’t being disciplined in my walk and I had baggage that was starting to really weigh on my heart. Reading a number of different blogs I kept picking up on the idea of being mentored or getting into a group of men where I could be held accountable. A few weeks later I contacted John Smart from church. John was the original creator of the church website and he had handed it over to me before being relocated to Alaska. Having just come back into the area, John immediately plugged himself into the Men’s Ministry. He’s a big easy going guy with a personality that always makes me feel comfortable. I asked him if I could meet with the mens team to discuss the concepts of discipleship and mentoring. Now I did this with the very selfish idea of finding a mentor or being discipled but as usually occurs when I do something like this I wounds up being part of the ministry. Not that I mind. I’m still not doing Sr. High Sunday school and have been itching to do some teaching again. So, in light of my initial conversation with the team, this summer we are teaching The Man in the Mirror by Patrick Morely and Character Counts by Rod Handley. I’m also helping coordinate a Mens Retreat for the Fall. Still haven’t found a mentor or a men’s small group, but I’m still working on it.

On a more fun note – 5 more days of work and we’re off to Corrolla, NC (Outer Banks) for nice week long vacation. We’re going back to the same house that we had last year and I’ve been looking forward to this all year. A whole week to do nothing but read, lay in the sun, swim in the pool and take long afternoon naps – OH YEAH – Daddy likes his naps.

Until next time.
Peace,

Rong